During my last ADHD support group meeting, I have volunteered to be speaker to our next session. The irony of making my first support group meeting talk on a friday dated as traditionally bad luck is rather unnerving.
Though I’m pretty sure I could be walking on imaginary bunny feet and miss out all those ladders, I am positive that luck would strike me no matter what tradition states. That one hour of glory is enough for me to not care!
I’ll be talking about ADHD and it’s discouragement’s. Still now knowing how to start and end my talk, I’ll be doing a lot of research for the next few days.
Also as part of the update, I have just been advised that I am a combined type of ADHD. And all this time i thought i was just inattentive! You see, ADHD has three types.
1. The Inattentive – simply distracted most of the time
2. The Hyperactive – most commonly visible sign
3. Combined type – having both inattentiveness and hyperactivity, yes this one is me.
That knowledge actually inspired me to make this image on InstaText
The picture I actually took via film using my Diana F+ Lomography camera then edited it on a few Itouch applications. Indeed I am proud and blessed with creative juices! But I am prouder finding out that I am but a stand out to everyone else out there.
On a similar note, I have rarely stumbled upon ADHD blogs and came across this particular writing from http://lifewithadhd.tumblr.com :
“Be kind to yourself. Stop telling yourself that whatever you are struggling with “should” be easy. If something is hard for you, it is hard for you. There are probably Reasons, though those may just be how you are wired. Acknowledge these things. When you finish something hard, be proud! Celebrate a little.
And really, just stop saying “should” to yourself about your thoughts and feelings in any context. You feel how you feel. The things in your head are the things in your head. You can’t change either directly through sheer force of will. You can only change what you do. Stop beating yourself up for who and what you are right now–it isn’t productive. Focus on moving forward.”
It hits home. This was a huge problem for me. And up until now, little snippets of it come crawling back depending on the situation. Though I have come to embrace it in a way that I am still learning from it.
Just notice all your awesome packages and juts improve on the rest you wanna work on. I always beat myself up when I can’t figure out a simple step by step instruction on solving a math problem, but I’d be darn happy when I’m done inking a sketch of a cartoon I invented in my head.
I know not everyone can do that. And I am happy only a few of us can! Creativity is a gift. And so is having ADHD.
*A friend advised me to pick up from where I left off my thesis topic. And so, I may be starting a new blog concentrating about this topic. Will keep you, my lovely blog reading buddies updated. Cheers and thanks for reading!